“For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.” Romans 8:24-25
As followers of Christ, we are to live our lives according to His will. I don’t know about you, but I can spend a lot of time asking, “Well, how the heck to do I know FOR SURE that I am doing the will of God?” I’ll pray my head off about something, spend time in His word, talk to friends and parents about it, but still feel a little uneasy. What gives?
Some people audibly hear the voice of God, some people witness blatant miracles right before their eyes. (Some days, I really do just want a burning bush in front of my face as a sign, even if it burns my eyebrows off!) I only know the experiences that I’ve had, and I know how unhealthy it can be to compare my faith to other people’s. Sometimes we feel closer or farther away from God, and that’s okay.
The truth is that our distance from God has nothing to do with Him, and everything to do with us. Maybe it often seems so hard to find God because we aren’t looking for the right things. I often struggle with the thought of not being in the will of God because I’m looking for control, comfort, a checklist of what to do, and I expect all of it now.
But this is the bottom line. What’s for you will not pass you by. You will not miss what God has planned for your life. You can’t mess it up because it’s not up to you. You don’t have that much power. Here’s the good news, He DOES have that power. In fact his power is out-of-this-world-incredible; that’s what makes Him big enough to worship. If God wants you somewhere He (for lack of a better metaphor) will knock you on your butt. He will break your heart for what breaks His and if we are seeking Him in everything we do, He will constantly remind us, even when we don’t understand, that He is in control and His plan and His timing are perfect. It doesn’t mean we will have it all figured out, but it gives us the courage to take that first step even if we don’t see the whole staircase, or gives us the peace to wait patiently.
This trip to Romania is a first step for me, and I definitely don’t know what the staircase looks like. But everyday I keep taking more steps and He keeps making my view clearer, little by little–at His pace, not mine. I think the truth is that I couldn’t handle the whole staircase. But God never lets me go, even if I trip up the stairs, hesitate halfway up, or keep looking back. He puts people in my life to encourage and support me. (Hey reader, that’s you!) He provides me with peace despite the unknown. I won’t fully understand what God has for me in this life, but I know that I won’t miss it. And what an indescribable joy that is.