“Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.” 1 Thessalonians 5:11
I don’t like asking for help. It takes 5 minutes of a mental pep talk to force myself to raise my hand in lecture to ask a professor a question. I appreciate chivalry, don’t get me wrong, but sometimes I think to myself, can’t I just let the guys go first for once? And the truth is that I would be failing my literature class without my best friend who takes it with me, who I can admit all my confusions and ill-preparedness to all the while acting like I’m on top of everything.
The point is that we can’t get through this life alone. We can’t. We need each other. I think God puts friends in our lives to walk by our side to remind us, “No you can’t do this alone, but I’m with you.” We are dependent on the people around us, whether we like to admit it or not. Sometimes we pretend like we have it all together, but we don’t.
It is hard for me to say I need help with this trip to Romania, but I really do. I can’t do this without God and the people He has put in my life. I need help spiritually, emotionally, physically, and financially. If I’m being honest, some days this trip scares the living daylights out of me. Sometimes my own unanswered questions about God scare me into thinking I have no authority to show kids who He is. I have sinned the same sins thousands of times, and Satan whispers in my ear that I am unqualified and should just stay home. I have never worked with kids who don’t speak my language. Up until recently, I was (and still am) painfully ignorant about this part of the world. I have so much more to learn. But I also hear God’s voice and He says,”Go anyway.” It’s safe to say I’m the poster child for, “God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.”
Sometimes the hard thing to do and the right thing are the same. The hard thing is to say YES I will go, but I can’t do it alone. I need a friend to go with me. I need friends and family to stay home and be in constant prayer. I need my mom’s wisdom to help me deal with uncertainties. I need someone to teach me what these kids need and how to give it to them. I also need financial support. God has given me a heart for helping people, and He is teaching me that there are people who want to help just as much as I do, and I need to accept help from others at well.
So here I am, putting it all out there, asking from a grateful heart, for your support. I have already received so much encouragement as I prepare for this trip, and I have been so blessed by it. Your feedback on this blog has been incredible, that’s why I keep writing. I ask that you would continue to pray for peace, strength, protection and a heart open to whatever God calls us to do! If you can contribute financially, please make the check out to Hope Church with “Jane Kunkel-Romania” in the memo line and mail to Jane Kunkel, 52 Somershire Drive, Rochester, NY 14617. My plan is to continue to write while I am in Romania and to share some reflections afterwards. I really feel that all of you are going with me so it only makes sense to keep you updated!
Whatever support you provide, please know it is greatly appreciated. I knew that going on this trip would teach me so much. I guess I didn’t realize how many lessons I would learn before I even left.