“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
It’s been a painfully long time since I wrote a blog post. Oh how I’ve missed you all (I hope you’re out there!). You see, I’m an all-or-nothing kind of chick; I can’t bear the thought of doing things half-halfheartedly. This sounds good in theory, but it sometimes paralyzes me and keeps me from doing things at all. I am learning that to get things done I need to just begin.
This summer was hard. I learned to pick my battles with 8 year olds who kill frogs, that online summer courses are not for me, and that sometimes I will have to go through some downright crappy seasons of life and that’s the way it is. Period. But I also learned that God is greater than my tribulation. I learned that true friends understand that life gets busy, and the love is there. I learned that sometimes God lets me get knocked down so I can experience deeply the stillness that comes when I finally listen to His voice, and let go of everything I’ve held so tightly for so long.
Getting to the end of summer was a relief in many ways, I was excited for the new beginning of my junior year of college (wait what?). I’m about three weeks in, and as always, it isn’t the picnic I was expecting.
But someone dear to me reminded me that I am not at the finish line yet, God has a lot more in store for me that will refine my character. This means more tribulation ahead. And I want to be ready. How embarrassing would it be to celebrate too early and fall on my face before I get to the finish line?
Throughout college I’ve had different mottoes for myself that I repeat when the school-work got unbearable. It would be things like, “You wouldn’t be here if you couldn’t do it,” or simply at finals time “Your life doesn’t suck.” This semester it’s, “Life’s tough, wear a helmet.”
My “helmet” is the hope that I have in Christ. It’s the comfort of knowing I don’t have to figure everything out at once. The Lord of the universe is holding my life in His hands and He is only asking me to take each day as it comes. There are things I can control and things that I can’t. I only need to decide what the next best decision is. And just begin.